A real friendship.

In October of 2010, I met someone who undoubtedly changed my life forever.

For one, I hated her.

Seriously.

Everyone loved her. She was beautiful, tan, blonde, sweet, and funny.

She was so nice that it literally made me sick.

I saw her start to hang around bad people and I knew I didn’t want that for her, no matter how jealous I had been.

So, I wrote a little note in History class and passed it around the room to her.

On a little sheet of paper were the words that have bonded two people together for so many years.

We’ve had one fight since the seventh grade. We were on BBM, and she called me a ‘stringy haired bitch’ and I could do nothing but laugh and make up with her.

I cannot ever explain all of the stupid inside jokes we’ve made these passed four years that still make me cry from laughing to this day.

When I was depressed, when I was nothing, she was there. She never let me feel alone. Sometimes she would just listen, others she would just keep reminding me that it would all be okay. (She was right.)

I have a second family within her. An extra papa, nana, and mom. I can’t tell you how many times her Nana’s cooked for me, her Mom has had fun with us, or her Papa has made fun of me until I couldn’t take it anymore.

When I moved two hours away from her, we didn’t grow apart. We haven’t grown apart. We talk everyday, and whenever I get the chance to visit her I take it without question.

Whenever I am upset, I know I can call her. I know no matter what I did, she would never judge me for anything. She never has.

She tells me when she doesn’t agree with something, she never sugar coats things to make sure I don’t have my feelings hurt.

She would lie for me if she had to.

She appreciates EVERYTHING in her life. I have seen her when she’s barely had anything, and she has the biggest smile on her face. I have never seen one person bring her down, no matter how hard that they try.

I have found a friendship in someone that I’ve only known since middle school and she’s one of the best friends and people I’ve ever known.

She is the kindest and most accepting person… I feel bad for anyone in this world that doesn’t have her as a friend, or value her if they do.

I feel bad if you don’t have a friend even half as great as she is.

In the end she “wants her heart to be covered in stretch marks.”

What more could you ever ask of someone?

“It doesn’t matter how long you’ve known someone. What matters is who came by your side, and never left.”

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i love you carley beth

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My secret to getting rid of black circles

*disclaimer, this is for girls*

We all have them.
Well, maybe not some of us (the lucky ones.)
The black circles.
The bags.
The puffiness red and purple circles.
The ring of death.

Mine are awful.

Literally awful.

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So, I am here to share my secret to hiding them.

But… The way I do it is a little strange but heavily effective.

I tried so many concealers, nothing ever worked. It would disappear during the day and my circles show through, it was horrible.

Then I learned this.

Red. Lipstick.

Crazy right???

Don’t knock it till ya try it.

Step 1:
After you prime your face, find a thin red orangey/ coral lipstick. Apply it to your brush and then on your circles.

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Step 2:

Without blending in the lipstick, take your orange based concealer if you have one, or concealer of your choice and apply over it and then blend out evenly with a sponge or brush.

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Step 3:
Now you can apply your foundation and there you go!! No more black circles. ☺️

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The red works so well because red is color correcting for purple and black. I have tried color correcting pallets and nothing worked for me until this.

See if it works for y’all!

M.L.K 2015

“Our lives start to end the day we become silent about the things that matter.”

MLK is a man to look up to because he took a stand without any violence. He protested, he fought, and he worked for what he wanted and not once did he have to be violent.

Today, in 2015, we celebrate the birthday of a man who changed equality history forever, and here we are (blacks and whites) still being racist against eachother.

When will it end?

“They will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character.”

Why must we say that one single race is evil, degrading, and violent?

Today, we say, “Thank you MLK for all you have done.”

But, tomorrow?

We are back with derogatory racist slurs, race grouping, and violence against opposite races.

“I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too much of a burden to bear.”

God created everyone differently, but not to be treated as such. We live in a world where if you aren’t the right color, listen to the right music, spend your weekends a certain way- you are talked down upon, you are left in the cold, and you are not accepted.

For everyone that thinks it’s okay to react violently to racism, look what he did for our country. With just words and love he changed the course of history forever. One single man with a dream.

You can change the world.

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M.L.K 2015

“Our lives start to end the day we become silent about the things that matter.”

MLK is a man to look up to because he took a stand without any violence. He protested, he fought, and he worked for what he wanted and not once did he have to be violent.

Today, in 2015, we celebrate the birthday of a man who changed equality history forever, and here we are (blacks and whites) still being racist against eachother.

When will it end?

“They will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character.”

Why must we say that one single race is evil, degrading, and violent?

Today, we say, “Thank you MLK for all you have done.”

But, tomorrow?

We are back with derogatory racist slurs, race grouping, and violence against opposite races.

“I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too much of a burden to bear.”

God created everyone differently, but not to be treated as such. We live in a world where if you aren’t the right color, listen to the right music, spend your weekends a certain way- you are talked down upon, you are left in the cold, and you are not accepted.

For everyone that thinks it’s okay to react violently to racism, look what he did for our country. With just words and love he changed the course of history forever. One single man with a dream.

You can change the world.

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Taking people for granted

Us as humans battle everyday- we battle being a walking contradiction of beautiful and reckless.

We are all a little selfish, whether you admit to yourself or not.

There are people in our lives that put the effort, all of their effort, into us. Whether it be a friendship, family, or a relationship.

And so many times we don’t even see it, and when we do we just take these people for granted.

Sometimes, they stay around because they want to continue to put effort into your life.

Sometimes, they get run dry and have nothing to do but walk away.

And you may not realize this, but once they are gone or stop trying as hard, it will make a huge impact on your life.

There are people in this world that make you who you are and make you a better person.

Don’t push away someone that cares about you today.

Suicide- a tribute to my friend.

Every single day everyone we know is battling with something we may never know or understand.

The nicest people are always the most sad it feels like, giving all of their hearts away into people and never getting anything back in return.

It breaks my heart to know that someone that was so nice to me every single day in middle school, always smiling, and always making others smile, and ‘friendliest’ according to who’s who in the yearbook is gone out of this world because of suicide.

People always say how cowardly of an act suicide is, but what’s cowardly and pathetic is making someone feel like they have to commit it.

Today I challenge you:

• Tell someone that you love how much you love them. Let them know what they mean to you.

• Smile or compliment a stranger. You never know if it’s the only smile they get all day.

• Take up for someone getting bullied. Don’t just watch. Do something.

• Make sure you remind yourself that you are important.

The world would be an emptier place without you in it.

Rest in peace to someone who was already an angel before they made it to heaven.

Jerks.

Sorry boys, maybe a post for you tomorrow but this one is all for the girls to get over whatever jerk has completely screwed them over.

Maybe you can read it to be sure you aren’t considered a class A jerk.

Let’s just begin here-
Usually the case is these boys are just boys. They are not men. Not even close. They’re immature, inconsiderate, and let’s not forget disrespectful.

If you are serious with a boy and they know you are considered to be serious- there is no excuse for other girls flirting all in their messages, snapchats, and tweets.

“We are just friends.” Is not applicable to exes, passed hook-ups, or the ‘well-known’ girl walking around school.

Is that why they read- oh, I’m sorry- ‘didn’t get your message’ but sure got hers???

If you aren’t serious with him, you aren’t allowed to get jealous. So you just have to get over it.

If you are into someone and they are equally into you- there is no competition.

A guy that makes you feel like you are constantly competing with other girls is not worth your time.

If you are constantly cussed at, inappropriately spoken to at all times, ignored openly, not shown off, and not appreciated… WHY ARE YOU WASTING YOUR TIME??????

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I cannot even begin with the talks I have with girls about their boyfriend or people that they’re talking to that just absolutely treat them like trash.

“I mean I know he talks to other girls.. But, I know I’m special.” You’re not.

“He said he won’t do it again…” He will.

“She’s only his best friend because she always snapchats him. He doesn’t reply.” Impossible. He does.

Usually boys turn out this way because:
A) they think it’s cool
B) they were raised that way
C) they weren’t raised at all
D) they may have been hurt before

No matter what the ‘excuse’ or reason, you should not have to put up with it, or deal with it because you love them.

You deserve laughter and replies, and you deserve to be spoken to with respect. You deserve kept promises, and sweet surprises from time to time. You deserve to be taken out and shown off, not kept behind a phone screen and inside of a house. You deserve to be loved and you deserve to be respected.

And when in the world did doing these things for your girl become gay, lame, and whipped?

It’s called being a man.

Grow up.

****DISCLAIMER: for all of the boys that complain about girls doing these things to them- it’s time for you to take the same exact advice.*******

(Not all guys are this way… Promise. I have a wonderful boyfriend, you just have to find the right one ❤️)

You are…

You are not the number of A’s on your report card.
You are not the rounded number of your GPA.
You are not the number of bills in your pocket, nor are you the number of 0’s in your bank account.
You are not the name on the tag in your clothes,
You are not your mistakes.
You are not a weight.
You are not the color of your skin.

You are the places you’ve left bits of your heart in.
You are the number of smiles you’ve impacted onto others
and the number of bursts of laughters you’ve caused.
You are the promises you’ve kept.
You are the vulnerable secrets at 3 AM.
You’re the people you love.
You’re the places you will go.
You’re the “thank you”s
The “I miss you”s
And especially the “I love you”s
You’re the strength you give others, even when yours is all gone.

You’re the place that you call home.

10 little things to enjoy in life

Enjoying (and noticing) the little things in life can make a huge impact on your happiness and stress.

If you’re a pessimistic person, you’ll probably write off this post and think about how stupid it was when it’s over. You probably won’t even read it. But, if you are one of those people, I encourage you even more to read this so maybe you’ll stop hating life just a little less.

1. When someone holds a door for you.
Have you ever been at school, work, anywhere and someone you don’t even know holds a door for you? It’s the warmest feeling knowing someone took two seconds out of their day to make sure you didn’t get KO’d by a door they let slam shut. It’s important to notice these things and give praise for it- then pass it along.

2. Getting warm undies out of the dryer.
“How stupid does this sound, right?” But, have you ever done it? It’s amazing. It’s like getting into your grandmas 80 degree
house when it’s below freezing outside. It’s like just being with your grandma. (I love my grandparents. 😂)

3. A smile from a stranger.
Isn’t that warming to your heart too? Almost as warm as those underwear. Someone made eye contact with you- someone you don’t even know- and just smiled at you. Just a, “Hey, I hope you’re having a nice day.” And even if you weren’t, I bet you are feeling just a little better now. Right?

4. Just a small gesture from someone you love.
Your brother/sister passing you the remote. Your boyfriend/girlfriend choosing your favorite place to eat, when they’d rather have Moes. That’s love.

5. Something that makes you laugh.
Laughter seriously is the best form of medicine, and how great does it feel to just literally laugh out loud sometimes? Even making someone laugh can brighten your day. It’s great to know you’re freaking hilarious.

6. Eating anything that you enjoy.
One of my most favorite pleasures is eating; and what better way than to live in a country where a platter of chicken and fries can cost under 10 dollars? Or maybe your Mom cooked a delicious dinner you can smell all the way from the driveway when you pull in. Sometimes, even the right school food can hit a good spot if it doesn’t make you sh*t your pants.

7. WAKING UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND REALIZING HOW MUCH TIME YOU HAVE LEFT TO SLEEP.
If this has never happened to you, I seriously feel so bad for you. Your eyes flutter open and you’re pissed because you’re like, “Do I really have to get up right now?” And then you pick up your phone and- it’s 3:30 AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!¡¡¡¡!! So you happily go back to bed.

8. When you finally get those lyrics right to the rap song.
Okay… So… Maybe this doesn’t apply to everyone….

9. Someone showing they care about you.
“Text me when you get home.”
“How was your day?”
“Put on your seat belt.”
“I got you a surprise.”
“I missed you.”
“I love you.”
“Are you sure you’re okay?”
“Do you need anything?”
“Watch out, I just stuck my gum under that desk.” Jk

10. Just getting to see the beauty God created.
We live on a beautiful planet, with so many things to enjoy. Just be happy to be alive and well. Sometimes, life sucks. But, not always.

If you’re lucky like me you might have a really cute boyfriend but if not then well just go through this list from time to time.

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Life after being bullied

The first two words should already give you hope- life after.

There are some people who feel like there is no life after being bullied, which explains why they take their own. The burden of feeling hated and alone can weigh so much on one’s heart.

Have you ever walked into a room and known that everyone in there was talking about you until they saw you? Have you ever walked in a room where they don’t stop?

Bullying happens in plenty of ways, some ways many of us don’t even realize.

Bullying can be physical, orally, and of course there is cyber bullying.

You can be bullied by same sex, opposing sex, all races, and even your friends.

The worst feeling is knowing that people can make you feel worthless and still go to bed at night, and be able to do it all over again.

Imagine being a middle school girl surrounded by all the pretty girls with their makeup, and their clothes, and their sleepovers- and you’re new. You aren’t new to them by name, but a summer can really change a person. Apparently. You’re still wanting to have fun, not worried about boys, makeup, or anything that big kids worry about. Imagine being surrounded by all of these boys with their new eyes for girls, and you’re you. You’re the same hair parted down the middle, bare faced, stupid joke telling girl everyone loved in elementary school. You still want to play dodge ball in the gym, be the class clown… It’s not cool to be a ‘Tom boy’ anymore.

You’re so sweet. You compliment everyone, help them with their work, try to make them laugh. You’re nice to anyone that comes across you.

But, you still over hear it everyday.

You just want to be pretty, so you cry and break down everyday and your mom finally lets you wear makeup and teaches you how.

You wake up at 6 (an hour early) and you are so careful applying it, you get out a straighter and fix your mess, and you dig and dig until the clothes you’ve found are perfect.

You can’t help but smile and prance around the house- you’re a new person.

Then you get to school and no one even notices. You’re still not important. You aren’t cool. You don’t matter.

Boys still make fun of you.

“She’s just a butter face.” Who even knows what that is in the sixth grade?

“I mean, she’s just funny.”

“Maybe if she was pretty.”

“She’s weird anyways. She just writes and she’s a nerd.

Girls still don’t accept you.

“We’re busy Friday.”

“Sorry, she’s already sitting here.”

“Who even did your makeup?”

So, you go home crying again.

You cry every single day.

You have two or three friends, but in middle school you don’t realize how important it is to have less friends that are true than it is to have more friends that are fake to you.

Imagine being a middle school girl. You wear makeup now. But, you’re still ugly they say. Imagine being on the phone with a popular girl, and there’s others on a third line and you don’t even know. You’re dumb and you fall for it, so you share secrets with them and even talk about the girl that is on the other line because they tell you to- you just want someone to accept you. Imagine being a middle school girl, and a boy starts approaching you. One you’ve cared about since elementary school. You flip your hair over your shoulder and your heart is beating so fast. They texted you the night before, all about some girl they like but they never tell you who. They’re coming up to you, “I’m about to tell her I like her…” And you think it’s you. And it isn’t. they take the note you wrote them that morning about them, rip it up, and they throw it at you when you’re sitting on the grass on the practice field.

How stupid do you have to be?

“Why don’t they like me?”

And your mom has no answer. She never does. Who couldn’t love someone that gives their all and just wants a damn smile in return? Finally, she tells you at the end of the year you’re moving. You can get away from it. You don’t have to cry anymore.

This isn’t a sob story, so don’t feel bad for me.

You move away and it’s amazing how accepting some people can be to you.

Now people may think I am beautiful, or important, or fitting in.

I am the same girl that I was so many years ago.

I have the same corny jokes, the same heart of acceptance, and the same welcoming soul to anyone who gives me a chance.

So, next time you look at someone and want to give them the hardest time because of the way that they look, consider who they are on the inside.

Next time you look at a beautiful girl with beautiful hair and perfect makeup, consider who she is on the inside.

Consider she may have been torn apart when she least deserved it.

If she’s a beautiful girl with beautiful hair and perfect makeup, and she’s doing the bullying-

Consider she may have been torn apart when she least deserved it, too.

When I am that girl- that takes out what I have felt on others- that is when you can feel sorry for me.

There is life after being bullied. Being alone. Being unimportant.

You find people that accept you, and love you. And you start to love yourself.

There is life after. So, don’t ever give up.

You were always important.